Aw.. I warned him early on that my depression could come back, because when we met, I wasn’t toooo bad. He always said he’d stick by me and that he understood.. He just hugged me when I told him about my eating..
He’s always tried to help so much.. I think he gets frustrated that after more than two years, I can’t quite understand that he loves me and that he won’t leave, oh and that he finds me attractive in any way .. I’m frustrated by that too because it causes a lot of problems..
I sometimes worry that I’ve trapped him with my shit He gets angry sometimes and rightfully so because depression puts a huge strain on a relationship. I’d love to be better. I’d love to share a good, healthy relationship with him. I’d love for him to not have to worry so much about me.. Its not fair on him..
Um.. I went off on a tangent, but he reacted well as could be expected and he’s been far too good to me. He supports me through everything and I don’t know why and how he finds the strength to do so. I’m working on getting better .. c:
You know what .. Dan has stood by me through everything. I can’t ruin things, I can’t hurt him anymore.. I need to make him happy again..